181, -2, 60 pounds total

This is the best non-cheating week I have had in a while and I only lost 2 pounds. It's very disheartening. Maybe if I didn't cheat at all I would lose 3, so it's my fault. No, these are my conscequences for the decisions I've been making.

It's pretty clear that the big thing that I need to incorporate, besides the not cheating, is more exercise. That just a few tiny indescretions can cause such big results is a sign that I need to get my metabolism up. Just imagine what would be happening if I was eating regularly again. I'd gain it all back in no time. I DO NOT want that to happen. They tell you all the time in the weekly classes that if you don't incorporate regular exercise into your lifestyle you will never keep the weight off. I believe it.

183, -1, 58 pounds total

185, +4, 56 pounds total

Happy New Year!

I know it's been a while. The Optifast clinic had a holiday break, and I pretty much took one too. I am super way behind my goal now. It's sad, really. I'm the same weight I was 6 weeks ago. Bleh.

Well, I goofed off and now I'm seeing (and paying for) the consequences. The good news is that I have still lost 56 pounds and I'm ready to lose the other 40 or so. This week, this year, I'm recomitted to finishing up the Optifast. I'm not one for New Years resolutions, but it just feels right to make some promises to myself now.

The lesson I learned over the last few weeks is that what I do after I reach my goal weight and go off the Optifast is very very important. It's so easy to go back to my old ways. Part of the problem over the holidays was that I wasn't buying groceries and making healthy food because I was still more or less still on Optifast. I was also indulging myself because of all the things that the holidays bring. I'm also having problems stopping before I eat too much. If it's really delicious I will just eat it all, and I can't be doing that any more. I have to put the extra away somewhere before I even begin eating I guess. These are just some of the issues that I can't really deal with while I am on the Optifast. I can think about them and maybe try to come up with solutions, but until I am eating food again I can't act.