180, -3, 61 Pounds Total

Yay for me! I broke the 60 pound barrier!

I didn't really deserve it since I ate all kinds of stuff last week. But I get things I don't deserve all the time, and at least this is a positive thing.

I came to the conclusion that I need to make some changes, since I can't seem to get back on track the way I want to.

One of the things I decided is that I am going to give myself a deadline. On April 5 I am going to start tapering off the Optifast (going on PFEs, for those in the know) regardless of how much more weight I lose. I picked April 5 because that is what I have on my spreadsheet as the projected date that I would be going on PFEs assuming I stay on the Optifast and lose about 3 pounds per week. If I stay on and lose, great. If I cheat a bit and don't lose a pound, that is OK too. I'm just ready to be done and if I let myself I might be able to stretch this process out until next February. I'm giving myself a last chance to get rid of another 20-25 pounds or so and maybe the deadline will help me focus.

I also went out last night and got myself some legos and built a little lego chart of the pounds I have left to lose. It seems kinda stupid, I know. I just need to find some new ways to motivate myself, since the old ones don't seem to work so well these days. I'm trying to find the spirit that I had in the first couple months. If I can harness it for just a few more months I can reach my goal... or not. I have two months to see how well I can behave.